Donald Glover's looking forward to a lot of change this year. The actor, comedian and (as Childish Gambino) rapper will only appear in five episodes of the new season of "Community," as he's been focused on finishing his second album "Because the Internet" for a late December release. In addition to recording and touring, he's set to write, executive produce and star in "Atlanta," a music-themed half-hour comedy in development at FX.

But Glover's also been going through some shit, as suggested by a short film he starred in and released online in August, and as he elaborated on in a letter penned on hotel stationary and published in seven parts to his Instagram account. "I didn't leave 'Community' to rap. I don't wanna rap. I wanted to be on my own," Glover writes. "I've been sick this year. I've seen a bunch of people die this year. This is the first time I've felt helpless. But I'm not on that. Kept looking for something to be in with. Follow someone's blueprint. But you have to be on your own." He goes into his fears about "Community" creator and showrunner Dan Harmon hating him, about never outgrowing the skit that served as his troupe Derrick Comedy's breakout and about his relationship. Check out the full letter below.